My Family

One of the very rare family pictures that has been reasonably well-taken...especially with two boys who have difficulty in looking at the camera...on a hot and sunny day at Jurong Bird Park....

Proud Mummy

To keep it simple, I have decided to let the title and the picture (one of my favourites)... do the talking...

HELLO After a Long Long While

Hi hi hi!

Almost a year has passed since I last visited and posted on this blog. Hmm...still the same old me, except that now I am a mother of two instead of one. Joshua was only still a tiny being in my tummy when I last posted and now he is seven weeks old.

It is really energy zapping with Jovan and Joshua running around me, or rather with Jovan running around me and I running around Joshua. Tiring it may be, but definitely worthwhile as they surprise you with their wits and tricks, both knowingly as well as unknowingly. I was really surprised when Jovan all of a sudden took out a red cup and asked me to go out of the house. I realised he actually wanted me to cut leaves for the caterpillars which we decided to keep as pets. I have only done it once. He actually remembered and took exactly the same cup. It is amazing how these seemingly small and helpless beings remember and learn.

Jovan is now recovering from a bad bout of cough and running nose. Joshua is now coming down with it. Though I am enjoying motherhood, it is worrying when the little ones fall ill. Sometimes, I wonder if I have done anything that causes them to fall ill. Looking on the positive side, they have to get sick to build up their immune system.

The only not so positive aspect of having children is that there is less of individual and couple time. I hope that in the midst of enjoying parenthood, I do not neglect my hubby. It is easy to see him as father of Jovan and Joshua but I think more importantly, he should be my husband. Only then, we can hand in hand be the best parents as we could for the two boys.

Surprises Surprises Surprises

It has been quite a while since I last posted. Looks like this is a dormant account. I would very much like to post regularly but somehow seem to lack the energy to do so....

Life is full of surprises. The first BIG but extremely pleasant surprise was when I discovered I was expecting Jovan. Chiew could hardly believe it when I called to tell him. He was in reservist then. The boy is now 9 months old. I actually meant for this blog to pen down my experiences in my journey through motherhood. However, with the lack of energy and maybe motivation, together with dashes of procrastination, I have not done any of those yet. The journey so far may not be all sweet and perfect but it is definitely priceless and all worthwhile. The little fellow has brought so much joy, laughter and pride to my life, and of course as well as fear and apprehension too, especially when he is unwell and so unaware of the dangers as he actively seeks to explore the world around him. It has always been an enjoyment just to watch him, playing, eating, bathing, sleeping......

Just as I am in the midst of coming to terms that I am now a mother, the second BIG and equally pleasant surprise came along. Yes, I am expecting again! My little Jovan is going to have a younger sibling. He is still so small, both size and age, that it is a little difficult to imagine he is going to be a big brother. Chiew and I have always wanted him to have sibling/s but never did both of us thought it would be so soon. Well, life is full of surprises right?

The second pregnany is taking its toll on me currently. I am now reliving the yuckiness of the symptoms of the first trimester and the dosage is stronger than the previous round. I find that is compromising my interaction and my ability to take care of my dear boy as I am feeling tired and yucky most of the time. I am really thankful to my loved ones, Chiew, my mum and dad, my sister, my brother and many others who have helped out in one way or another to make the current situation easier and more bearable. Thank you very much! I love all of you!

The Seed

It has been a long while since I last posted. I have actually managed to find a skin which I liked and have uploaded it, but I realised later that it was too complicated for me and hence my decision to revert back to what I had initially. I think simplicity is what keeps me going. I would like to share a haiku which I composed. I like haikus because they are short and simple. You see, simplicity again!

The Seed

Pushing through the soil

Strong and fearless up it goes

Out comes a new life

We have many fears in our lives. Fear of dark, fear of cockcroaches - I fear stepping on them, fear of losing, fear of failing - all these are but just some mere examples. These fears tend to hold us back from many things and sometimes even hamper us in the pursue of what we want and maybe even happiness. If only we can be like The Seed and be strong and fearless, rain or shine, sprout and grow.

Feeling Lost..

Hi, it' s my second post so far. I have been looking high and low at the www.blogskins.com in search of a skin for a makeover for my blog. However, being fickle-minded on top of being choosy, I have yet to find one that I fall in love with at first sight. I guess my husband is lucky that I fell in love with him, though it's definitely not at sight! I must admit I am very fortunate too to have him as my husband. I love you, Chiew!

Please bear with me while I continue my hunt for a skin that can touch me in some way. This is entitled Feeling Lost because I feel very inadequate and tiny out there online trying to find ways to beautify my blog. The vast amount of information is overwhelming! Yet somehow, I seem to have difficulty in finding what I want. Being a new mother to a boy who is currently 6 month old, I can't help but think how we can bring him up in an era where he can easily access to all kinds of information. Would inculcating the right values help to him to survive all kinds of influences? Well, I decided not to think too much but to take a step at a time and enjoy spending time with him meaningfully.

As a happy-go-lucky person, I appreciate and am satistisfied with what I have. It was so, and still is in some ways or rather most ways, till I had a casual conversation with my dear sister on a cab.

She is a teacher and we were talking about her students; how IT savvy they were, how they spent time online daily despite impending examinations. All these prompted me to feel inadequate and to some extent, out-dated. Though blogging has been an in-thing for ages, I have not read one and needless to say, create one.

Being in the education field myself, after hearing all the talk about life-long learning, I decided I need to do something to change the status-quo and learn something new, or face the high risk of being an passe. This is what leads to the birth of this blog. Pardon me if it may come across as a bit kiddish. I am in the process of exploring and learning and will greatly appreciate any advice if any.